I have suffered from  bipolar disorder since I was about 9 years old, at the time I didn’t know that there was a name for it. My mom and everyone else just dealt with my crying and screaming moods and there were a lot of those fits.

I remember having mood swings as a child and teen and thought it was normal , Everyone in my family has some sort of mental illness. I wasn’t diagnosed with bipolar until well into my 30’s . I have yet to find a medication combination that works for me. I have found a bunch of medications that don’t work or have bad side effects. I even have found two that I’m allergic to.

I am the oldest child in my family , my childhood was unstable and chaos as we moved around all the time. I have always felt like I don’t fit in, I avoid crowds and loud noises , I dislike parties.