Have You?


Have You?
Have you ever just
Wanted to just kill yourself?
To rip your own throat out and
Watch the blood spray through
Your hands and soak into the
White carpet? I HAVE.
I hate myself and my life and
The way Death gives everyone else
Theirs, but not me! I resent
The life we all live. Have you
Ever looked out an eight-floor
Window and just wanted to jump?
Just watch as your face
Smashes into the ground?
I HAVE. And they call me suicidal.


About misfitmuslimah

I suffer from bipolar disorder,PTSDD and Anxiety,as well as a few other disorders with long names I can't pronounce correctly or seem to spell either. I cry more than most everyone I know, not sure if this is a good thing or not. I have suffered many losses in my life, some I might one day be able to talk about others I have buried and try to forget

One response »

  1. So hard. So much pain in these words 😦
    I know it is extremely painful when you only see darkness in front of you and you feel happiness, hope, wellness will never happen in your life again. Be sure it is not the case. Sun always come back after rain. There will be light again.
    May God help you and bring peace to your heart.

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