Figured I should probably write a post about how I’ve been doing , truth be told I haven’t been doing that well , I feel crappy and unwell every bone and joint aches in my body my mood is stuck in blah depressed but no one around me even notices if I have a chance I tend to just go to my room and watch pointless tv I am at the point of why bother trying to fight depression it never seems to get better or easier in fact it seems to get a lot harder each time.
Depression is a very hard, lonely and isolating disease that has a lot of stigma attached to it , people judge you for using medication and therapy , people judge you when you don’t and they are always giving you advice on home remedies that help so and so pull through depression.Well to date I have tried over 30 or more medications along with vitamin and supplements , herbs and excise nothing has seemed to help , most of the medications had really bad side effects and there were a few that I was allergic to.
Here’s what I want people to know about depression , it makes me feel sad and have no energy and manifests as psychical symptoms in me , I don’t mean to hide in my room but sometimes it is the only way I can get through the day. When depressed I have a hard time reading people’s emotions and social ques it doesn’t help me any if they are speaking in a different language in fact it makes it 100 times harder .
Depression is like looking at the world with a foggy grey filter on over your eyes it dims the colors and shadows everything in grey , it steals your appetite, your drive , (get up and go ) or what ever you call it .